It isn’t easy being back at work, that’s for sure. It doesn’t help that things around here are kind of nutty what with problems that have arisen since the latest software release in mid-October, so there’s a whole damage-control element to the work I got back just in time to do.
Still, it’s distracting, and sometimes that helps. But other times, I just want to curl up into a ball in a corner and cry and miss my daddy.
My mom has made her plans to come visit Nashville at Christmastime. She’s traveling on my dad’s birthday (December 21st) and will arrive that evening, so she’ll be here for my birthday (the 23rd), as well as the 22nd, when we always used to celebrate both my dad’s and my birthdays together. I imagine that’s going to be tough for both my mom and me, so I’m glad we’ll be together. And then she’s staying through the 27th or 28th, I can’t remember which. Still not sure if my sister and her kids are coming down — they’ve been invited, but I don’t know if they’ll be able to swing it. And I think my brother and his wife are stuck working around Christmas, so they can’t get away.
Anyway, that’s that. I’m glad we have plans. Christmastime is going to be hard. I don’t even care that much about Christmas, but because of the timing of our birthdays, I associate the whole season so much with my dad; it’s just going to hurt like hell.
I can’t decide if I should have a birthday party (or rather, get Karsten to throw me a birthday party) to help distract me or if I’ll just be miserable. Guess I’ll wait and see how I feel in the next few weeks before I make up my mind.
I’m glad you’ll be together, too. We have a lot of loved-one deaths associated with holidays, here, and it took awhile — sometimes is still a struggle — to sort of reclaim it as a festive gathering.
I’m glad your Mom will be visiting you– I’m sure it will help to be together. I think of you often.