First, the Dad update: well, there’s not much new to say, actually. He’s been exhibiting the signs of active death for weeks now, such as picking at his bedclothes, reaching out into the empty air in front of him, increased apnea (up to 20 and sometimes almost 30 seconds between breaths), and, of course, the loss of control of his urine and bowels. No one knows what to do besides wait, keep him as comfortable as possible, and try not to go mad. I don’t mean to sound flippant about all of this; it’s just that I’m starting to be a little numb through all the strain and anxiety. Believe me, I’m still processing what’s really happening, and it breaks my heart into pieces. I just can’t spend all my time that way.
OK. Second update: I bought a new laptop, and it’s an Apple PowerBook! I hope some of my friends will be proud to have helped influence my conversion (, I’m a-lookin’ your way). I’m pleased as punch. I made the leap after realizing a few things: one, I do a lot of songwriting in places like cafes and libraries, and I’ve been trying to use either a paper notebook or my Treo 650 to capture the writing (I try not to use my work-issued laptop for personal stuff — a lesson learned from years of fairly abrupt job departures). The paper and Treo each have shortcomings for this type of use, and those shortcomings are a hindrance to productivity. I also finally bought myself MasterWriter software (I’m an ASCAP member, so I got a decent discount) to use on it. Anyway, there are dozens of other justifications and rationalizations, and one happy bonus is that, while we’re away from home, Karsten and I will be able to watch DVDs on it in the hotel room. It should be arriving today. Yay!